Hey ya'll. Dont mind me if I sound like a huge loser of a complainer in a couple seconds. Starting NOW. Today, well, today sucked. I dont know what is wrong with me but all day it has taken every ounce of control to not burst into tears. I just feel so not happy with my appearance. I feel so disgusted and just not good. Its so frustrating. I am sad because im fat, but i eat because im sad. Its so dumb and should be easier to break this cycle! For some reason im having a hard time with this. I guess its because its what ive been doing my entire life! Eating has been a crutch! A coping mechanism. A reward. Everything it shouldnt be. Im so stuck in my old ways, im in my OWN way. Change is hard. I am so sick of feeling ugly.